Tuesday, November 10, 2009


It's been 12 days since my 1st u/s.  8 of those days, I've endured anxiety-inducing spotting in an assortment of brown, pink and red.  While I know it's very common in early pg, especially IVF pg, it's also the prominent sign of m/c.

Ya know, before I became an infertility survivor, I used to get so frustrated with those that finally became pg and then spent so much time wasting away their pg worrying.  I was like, OMG, you finally got what I want so bad, why are you not enjoying it to the fullest???  My philosophy was no matter how you spend this pg, happy or in fear, it's not going to change the outcome, so why not enjoy it to the fullest?  Well I can honestly say now, it's easier said than done.  While I am thrilled beyond words, there are times where I'm plagued with the fear of knowing I'm not guaranteed a live baby at the end of this.  It just unfortunately comes with the territory of working soooo hard to achieve something that is so fragile and can end at any moment.

With each passing milestone, I'm chipping away at that nagging fear and becoming more and more excited.  It's finally starting to become real.  I still find myself in situations where Kerry will tell someone I'm pg and I'm literally like, OMG, I am, I am pg!

Today was my 2nd u/s @ 7w6d.  I'm so relieved to announce that it was a perfect u/s!  Here are the stats:

CRL:  14.9mm, measuring perfectly on track at 7w6d (up from 3mm, measuring 2 days behind)
HB:  173 BPM (up from 117 BPM, notice the 7's?)
Yolk Sac:  Present
Amniotic Fluid:  Normal
Placenta:  Diffuse (CCRM said this just means it's still hard to see and spread out)
Hemmorhage:  16x12x9mm (up from 5mm, CCRM says it's still small)
Cervix:  3cm (down a hair from 3.1cm)

Here's little Seven who increased in size by 5x and has sprouted little arm and leg buds!  It looks like our little blob is cursed with my big forehead!

I asked when we would get to hear the HB and she said not until after the 1st trimester.  Apparantly they have seen some studies that suggest that using the doppler this early can be dangerous to the fetus as the frequencies are very high.  Ok, I'll wait!

I went ahead and had my hormone levels checked today, a day early, since I was already there.

Estrogen: 1262 (>300)
Progesterone: 14.85 (>6, finally increasing!)

CCRM wants to start weaning me.  I'm to go from 4 to 3 patches tomorrow.  I'll stay on the same dose of Endometrin and Estrace.  I'm to check my levels this Fri.  They like to check levels 2 days after a decrease, which is great in case it was too early to decrease.  If I'm still doing good, they may decrease again. I'll be soooo glad when I'm done with all these meds!

My prenatal appt ended up being a short Q&A session with my ob/gyn.  They are going to hold off on all the blood work until they receive my communicables from CCRM as they don't want to unneccessarily repeat tests. 

I addressed my concern of all the spotting I've been having and she told me this is nothing to worry about, it's very common and only a worry if it turns to red flow with cramps. So I'm done worrying about the spotting! 

I addressed my concern about my leeped cervix and said I wanted to take a better safe than sorry approach with it.  She was very on board and said she would keep a close eye on it with u/s and also do fetal nectin tests which tests for preterm labor.

I asked about the H1N1 vaccine and while she recommended it, she has none and has had a very hard time getting any in stock.  She mentioned that she has already had 3 pg patients who ended up on ventilators due to H1N1.  Scary!

I asked how many people I can have in the room during delivery.  I expected 2-3, but suprisingly found out that it's as many as can fit as long as everyone stays out of the doctors way.  She said she just did a delivery where the woman had her entire church choir (20 people) in the room during delivery and they sang to her.  Wow!  So I'm very excited as I'd love nothing more than to invite my 3 moms to witness the birth of their grandchild.

At the end, she congratulated us, said she was so happy for us and knew that we must be filled with anxiety in between u/s.  She then said, how about another u/s in 1 week, would that be too long?  Ha, 1 week, are you kidding me?  I would have been good with 2 weeks, but I'll take it!  It won't be the full blown nice u/s like I've had, but instead a quick peak to make sure there's a HB on a lower quality machine.  How cool is that!

So that ends the details of my appt today.

Symptoms this week:

Frequent Urination (thanks to those that admitted to not flushing every time, we have resorted to this as well as I can't imagine our sewer bill with peeing every 10 mins.  We've gone back to the old college saying "yellow is mellow, brown goes down")

Extreme Exhaustion (thinking of auditioning for a role as a zombie for some extra cash)

Hungry all the time!!!  I can eat like a man!

Boobs... I never mention this one because my boobs became fuller, darker and ummm, more happy as soon as I started progesterone and before transfer.  So I don't really consider it a pg symptom, more a progesterone symptom.  They have never been sore.  Well... they are getting bigger!  I keep catching my nipple on the door frame when I take a sharp right out of the bathroom.  Ouch!

Pg Brain!  I managed to drop an entire pizza and a full glass of water on the floor at the same time!  Talented!  Kerry is having sympathy pg brain as he knocked his glass of water over, not once, twice!  Today I locked my keys in the car.

I've still managed to completely escape m/s!  I think some of Lucky Seven's luckiness has seeped into my system.

The other day I was craving pizza sooooo bad!  Kerry decided to let me splurge on pizza once a month.  We went to pick it up and on the way back, I found myself equally famished and having to desperately pee.  As soon as I got home, I couldn't decide which was more important, so I killed two birds with one stone.  Kerry just happened to be carrying in the camera from his car and well, I got caught!



  1. Awww....look at that little bean grow!! Yey!!! I'm so excited that the appointment went well and everything is looking absolutely PERFECT! I remember a conversation you and I had when I was first pregnant with Cameron and you were talking about how it bugged you that pregnant women couldn't just relax and enjoy their pregnancies because of fears, etc....and I told you that it's really really "easier said than done"....now you know what I was talking about...it's really hard sometimes to do just that but allyou can do is try:-) I think the internet has a lot to do with that because you read and hear so many horror stories, etc...so in a way it's a bad thing. I'm just really really excited to be following this journey of yours and I look forward to each and every update.....congrats on the great appointment! Also awesome about the extra u/s.....I had so many I couldn't count and it was very comforting:-)

    love ya!

  2. So glad you and Lucky 7 are doing well. We go on Nov 18th for our first sonogram to see how many we have in there! I am just praying our little one or little ones are still growing super strong!!!

  3. What a cutie-patootie! So glad to know all is going well - thank you for the update! I think seven is a good number for the delivery room, no? ;-)

  4. I just love, Love, LOVE reading your updates... I find myself checking your blog at least once a day, in case of any news-- and was so excited yesterday to see your appointment was today!! I am so thrilled to read the good report!! I can't imagine your anxiety (although I suspect that when I finally get pg I will be going through the SAME thing), but I am glad that your doc and nurses are encouraging you with "normals" all around.
    That little Seven is giving you winks from the womb with all those numbers... what a cutie. :0)
    And I'm TOTALLY LOL about your pizza/potty pic. Cracking up... seriously...
    Love the pics of Seven, too! So awesome to watch God's handiwork in action, eh?? I'll keep praying for you, Kerry and Seven-- continued peace of mind and perfect health!
    Love ya girlie,
    The Other Jill

  5. The photo of your little baby is gorgeous - he/she looks like a real little person starting to form!
    I also love the shot of you at the end. Sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do! x

  6. Lucky Number Seven is adorable and I'm so happy everything is on track!
    You crack me up with your eating pizza on the toilet shot LOL!

  7. I only wish that everyone could understand what it is to feel worried even after finally achieving the famed pregnancy goal...(and only because that would mean everyone got to experience it). I felt guilty even writing about it, remember how I used to roll my eyes at people.

    So glad everything is going well...and from the looks of that beautiful ultrasound...they are!

  8. Hilarious photo!
    So glad to see the little one is thriving, despite the spotting. Must just be from the SCH, and I bet it will all clear up further down the road.
    Glad you have such a nice OB!

  9. YAY! I was thinking of you yesterday, hoping for a good u/s. So glad all is well with little Seven, and with you too. And your o/b sounds great! Another u/s in a week! Lucky Seven strikes again.

  10. It is so true that once you finally are pg you still have so many fears and worries. I don't think I started to relax until about 16-20 weeks and more so after my 20 week u/s. Even today as I head to my 29 week u/s, I am fearful that something is wrong. hang in there!:)

    BTW, Love the pic!:):)lol

  11. OMG! I got you confused with PJ and thought the u/s wasn't until the 16th!! I am so happy for you! How awesome that you don't have m/s and everything is going great! I love your OB - it is so nice of them to do an u/s just to make you feel better!

    I'm jealous of you wanting everyone in the labor room. I'm at the opposite extreme b/c of family issues (or maybe my very weird issues too) and am insisting that ONLY Brett is allowed. Standing my ground!!!!

  12. Hi there Mama...finally the blog came to me normal! Thanks! Nice pics of the baby...I can actually make it out! Sweet! Have you thought about renting an u/s machine until you have the baby-lol! You're going to have more pics of the baby while its in your belly than you will have its first 10 years if you keep this up! Oh well...mommys (and daddys) go picture crazy-its normal! Your symptoms are about the same as getting old: peeing, tired, hungry and weight gain...welcome to my world! Take care and always know I love you all, always and a day...Aunt Carol

  13. So happy for you that all is well and little Seven is thriving!!! Very cool that they offered you another u/s in a week! That's awesome! LOL on the pic! Too funny!

  14. Hi...
    Awwww that's my Grambaby!!! How precious!!! I don't care if it's a girl or boy, however, make note of it, I never had morning sickness either when I was pregnant with you! I probably wouldn't be able to choose between the bathroom break or the pizza either!
    I still remember the hunger though and the tiredness!!! Hang in there!!! You are doing great!!!
    I love you as big as the sky, Mama

  15. Your potty pic...LOL! And how awesome is Seven...nice u/s pic. I am glad to hear all is going well Jill. And boy, can I relate to the "nagging fears" and going milestone by milestone...but just when I was at ease, the baby came early. So, enjoy your pg...now! :)
    Smiles, Heidi

  16. I'm glad everything is going well. Yeah, this is just the start of worrying for the rest of your life about your kid! And the photo, I so loved it! So much more fun and original than a belly shot! What pg antics will Jill be up to next?

    When you come out of your coma, would you please please please update your link for me?


  17. Beautiful pics--even that last one of your on the toilet :)
    Glad everything is going so well!


Thank you for your comment! Hugs, Kerry and Jill