Wednesday, June 3, 2009

One Week Down!

This waiting on CGH results has not been fun! I've managed to stay so busy that I'm overwhelmed and yet that still has not made this wait any faster. The days are dragging by.

Kerry and I are very thankful that a week has gone by, and not because of the CGH wait. Basically I went from super high doses of hormones to none overnight because there would be no transfer. My hormones took a nose dive and crashed, then aliens came down and replaced me with an evil decoy. It's been May Day, May Day here. Well, I'm finally back and starting to feel normal again, but man was I a mess! Let me just state the truth, I was mean mean mean! Fortunately I have a wonderful dh that is very understanding and gave me oodles of grace.

On an interesting note, at least for us IVFers, I did find during this cycle that the body definitely requires progesterone support after egg retrieval. AF came about a week early and gave me the shortest cycle I have ever had at 24 days. So this tells me that they definitely impact the corpus luteum's ability to produce progesterone during the egg retrieval process.

So what have I been so busy with? This dreaded college course. I didn't get much done while in Denver because my mind was way too preoccupied with IVF and now I'm having to scramble to catch up. On top of a full time job, I've been spending 6 hrs a night and endless hours on the weekend reading and completing assignments. I have one chapter, one assignment and one programming problem left before I can study for the final which is on Monday. I can't wait to be done with this class so I can have a life again.

On a completely different note, I've been having some strange dreams about my REs.

The first one, I was in Denver for my FET. They gave me a valium and I fell sound asleep. When I awoke, the transfer was done. Because I was asleep when Schoolie came in to ask how many I wanted to transfer, he decided to transfer what he thought was best and went with 2. When I found out, I totally panicked because I had made the difficult decision to only transfer 1.

My interpretation; it must be really weighing on me how many to transfer.

The second one, I was at my old RE's office. I went to get out of the bed and there was a pile of turds at the end of the bed from the previous patient and my foot was covered in it. I held my foot up to the RE's face and demanded that he clean my foot. He refused, so I got up and started walking all over his clinic, smearing poop everywhere I stepped.

My interpretation; I must be tired of this crap...

13 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh! Your second dream is hilarious! Good luck on finishing your class. I'm with you on the hormone crash...in fact, after our cycle last summer, after the hormones were stopped overnight, I seriously thought I would end up in a mental institution. It was awful. I wonder if there is any other way to come off of that stuff? Like more of a weaning? Actually, I've been meaning to talk to CC.RM about that, but just haven't gotten around to it. Even if I was just given a bit of a warning...I think that would have been helpful.

    May this wait go by quickly and may the results be awesome!

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  2. Wow! That is a ton of studying and school work. I can't wait for you to be done with your course so that you can have a life too!

    I love the interpretation from your second dream. LOL!!!

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  3. Oh yeah, the second dream is pretty telling. Aren't we all tired of this crap? It is truly exhausting on so many levels--and people who don't go through it just don't get it. I mean, you're supposed to be tired AFTER you have a baby, NOT before. But, here's hoping the weeks go by quickly and you wind up with a ton of good results!

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  4. Sorry to hear that the days have been dragging by. It sounds as though you have been so busy. I love your interpretation of your second dream!

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  5. The decision on how many embryos to transfer is weighing heavily on me too. I'm in your camp of SET.

    Well, that second dream really tells of how you feel about your old RE!! Good luck getting your course work done.

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  6. You're so close to finishing your course and before you know it, all the studying will be done! I had to laugh when I read about your second dream - itsn't it funny how our worries infiltrate our subconscious and manifest themselves into the wierdest dreams? I had a huge crash too after the ER but I was just feeling very tired. I was kind of expecting that and was aware of it, gave fair warning to DH and then tried to keep my snapping to myself. I'm glad you're getting over the hump. In terms of the wait for results, just think, every hour that goes by, every day, shortens the wait and you're closer to hearing about your results!

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  7. Woohoo on being back to your "normal" self. I'm glad this class is finally almost behind you. Also sorry the waiting is so hard,,,,like I told you in your e-mail, I'm losing sleep over YOUR wait too:0(

    Hang in there and I hope these next weeks fly by for you:-)

    Too funny about the poop dream...I think you win the award for the most bizarre dream of any of my friends...LOL

    love ya!

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  8. Your second dream is very apt. I think we're all tired of this crap! Good luck with the wait for the results. Looks like you've got a bunch of studying to do - that will keep you busy!

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  9. Freaky dreams! The bed of turds at the old RE's office wins that day! I'm sorry but I had to giggle...I should have had that dream too! I know the wait is long - but I've been noticing people getting results in just over 4 weeks still- so that is good!

    Oh - and I totally agree with the crash after the ER cycle. I was a mess. Enjoy your month off - take it easy, be healthy, have fun...you will be preggers soon!

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  10. What a hoot, probably right about the second dream.
    On the waiting.... that's one of the problems with these "kiddie" coasters, they can getting boring.
    But it's better than the last one.
    So hang in there
    Love ya

    Sheree

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  11. I love your sense of humor...hang in there girl!!
    Smiles, Heidi

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  12. OK. THat was hilarious. I just laughed for the first time in 3 days. Thank you.

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  13. Hope your final goes well today! Then you can hopefully stress less, or at least less about school! Let us know, I'm sure you'll do great.

    The Other Jill

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Thank you for your comment! Hugs, Kerry and Jill