Thursday, August 7, 2008
I got my beta results today, negative as expected. From quads to nothing, that was a big blow! It was a rough couple of days where I was so incredibly heart broken and boo hoo-ing uncontrollably. I've pulled myself together and I'm moving on. I cannot accept never being pregnant or being a mom, so I will continue to pick myself back up and try try again. Onto IVF#3. You probably think I'm insane, but this desire to be a mom is even more insane. I'm not exactly sure what my plans are, but I'm definitely moving onto a top IVF clinic as I'm not risking a 3rd negative at my local clinic. I'm leaning toward CCRM in Denver, Colorado or Cornell in NY. It's going to cost me dearly with travel expenses and a hotel for 2 weeks, but if that's what I have to do to give myself the best possible shot, that's what I'll do.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
I started having red bleeding tonight, just like last time. I've been crying hysterically. We're going to test at home in the morning due to the circumstances. We’re also going to schedule the beta tomorrow. Please pray for us.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
The IVF 2ww is the worst! I'm 11dpo and feel absolutely nothing, no signs, no symptoms. I have been praying/begging for this to result in a baby. I have no idea how this will turn out, it could go either way. I'll guess we'll all find out this coming week! Tick-Tock Tick-Tock....